Airing of Grievances

Growing up I was always told you take care of family. Even the neighbor is family when you've known them long enough. However I've come to learn in the long scheme of things that blood doesn't make you family. There is no loyalty in the game called "Family." The one most likely to stab you in the back isn't the homeless man/woman trying to get a taste of food - it's the person standing next to you in the family portraits. It's the person you've called 'cousin,' 'best friend' and 'family.' The bank is more likely to lose your money than your family is to turn on you, or so we're commonly lead to believe. The simply fact is, none of that is true. We're more likely to win the lottery or get struck by lightening before family is completely loyal to the end. Speaking of the word 'END,' I've seen so many fake pictures online that say that the word 'Friend' has the word 'END' in it and means that it comes to an end, always. However I've met people who've become damn good friends to me and I doubt they'd ever wrong me in any way, shape or form. Family is the true enemy in times of need. They'll stand there with you, against you secretly. They enjoy watching you struggle. They'll take you in, thinking it'll be nonstop entertainment that they don't have to pay for. They'll however let anger into their minds, let it linger and control there thoughts and words. I'd like to say something extremely ugly against you. However I can't. It's not in my nature to feel that way. I pity you. I can't help that I do. I wish I could. I'm just not as vile as you are. I was invisible to you the entire time. You were so comfortable. Not even realizing I was always just around the corner. In the next room. At the top of the stairs. Silently. Sadly you were just too busy being you. Uncontrollably you. It'll be your downfall. It's already started. As much as I'd enjoy hating you and as much as I do enjoy being away from you. I miss the people there that really mattered to me. It's just sad that you try so hard to keep them mentally and emotionally small. I just hope they learned to grow from the confidence I tried to instill in them. I never had that person in my life. So I decided to be that for them. I'd tell them to reach for the stars and all that shit. I'd tell them they could do anything and the truth is... They can. They just need to get away from you. You are the dark cloud. You are the blackened star. The forgotten child and the lost mother, and wife. I see it written in their faces. "Life would be so much better if she weren't here." Sad. I know all that you don't even notice one ounce of it. You're blinded by ignorance and I'll let you know what they say in circles with people like you... Ignorance is bliss. Learn to the love it "sister." Because when you've got nothing left, but that GED you earned at the tender age of 27 years old (I got mine when I was 17. Not saying I'm better than you - Although I am) - you'll realize it all could have been so much easier if you'd learned a long time ago that Family is Forever.