Restless and gone days without sleep.
Only to find myself napping away precious minutes that sometimes turn into hours.
Dreaming of strange things and waking in a cold sweat.
I don’t want to feel this ever again.
I just don’t want to feel at all.
WHY CAN’T I LIVE WITHOUT LIVING!?
I want to wash away the filth of life.
Replace it with something I’d rather know instead.
Burn the photographs, none of them matter.
They never did, they never will.
Fake people with phony smiles and even worse characters.
I’m done with continuing to fake it.
WHY CAN’T I BREAK THIS CYCLE!?
I can’t seem to get away from these chains.
Still locked in this cage I was born in.
Under a sun that never shines.
It just burns and burns and the darkness is all that I see of you.
Inside this casket of a life you’ve given to me.
WHY CAN’T I ESCAPE THIS HELL!?
Overshadowed and beginning to lose my mind.
I feel like a thousand worms are crawling beneath my skin.
They find every sore and make it their home.
WHY CAN’T THEY JUST LEAVE!?
IT FEELS LIKE THERES A VOICE IN MY HEAD!
WHY WONT IT JUST LEAVE!?
Telling me what I want to hear…
Yet telling me things I could never want to know…
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
I THINK I’VE MESSED UP AGAIN!
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
I messed up… again…
